No Rose-Colored Glasses

[tastes_of_honey]

I have to remember to see things and people as they are, not as I wish they are or they used to be. I'm aware that I've been particularly blind there on personal matters lately. I guess I'm just as human as anybody else is when it comes to people I care about, but it's past time for me to be more ruthless with myself.

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[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

What's going on, darling?

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

My ex, my team, a bunch of people I know... just people really sucking and me giving them too much slack and getting upset over it. I'm not achieving the levels of cynicism and indifference I should be.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

..I'm sorry. Want me to come over?

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Only if you really want to come over. I'm very thinky and something of a downer right now.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

Don't be ridiculous. Coordinates, please?

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::And they are sent. Schu's actually chilling out on his Nexus couch.::

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

There are many ways that Nagi could respond to this, but classic Nagi wins out.

"What the hell has you being so emo today?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

It's not so much emo as pissed off at myself. I've been getting upset over Farfarello, my team, and some other people I know being dicks to me for too long. I'm washing them out of my hair. From now on, when they give shit, they get shit back.

Usually I'm a lot faster at getting over things, but a lot of them are a part of my life I can't get away from. Seeing them all the time meant I kept getting reminded of when things were better.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi makes a vague noise. "Still think you should just kill the Farf in your world and get that settled."

"And did I remember to tell you that Gojyo's gone back to his own world?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

There are times when I'm very tempted.

You didn't, but his departure sent so many other people into new and different directions that I found out about it anyway.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"Mkay. Hopping back and forth between worlds makes it harder for me to keep track of who I've actually told things to." Nagi flops down on the couch next to Schu.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::snuggle?:: Ditto.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Yesplz, snuggles. "We have a big job coming up. I don't think it's all that risky, but it will be involved." Nagi expects to be spending a lot of time hacking and doing surveillence.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::snuggles!:: You'll kick ass. You always do.

When I'm not here, I'm working regular jobs, training Aya in telepathy, or pumping up the activists for the G8 summit, which is coming up soon (http://www.nadir.org/nadir/initiativ/agp/g82007/). Our days are just packed. I guess that's the problem with being so damned good at what we do.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

There she is, comfortably clothed, but still stylish (of course). She sits down next to him gracefully and snuggles up. "Hello."

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"Yeah. But my thing might keep me away from the Nexus for a bit. I've figured out how time moves there when I'm here, but the opposite isn't nearly so easy to work out."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Of course! Schu's dressed in white suit pants, yellow shirt, white loosened tie, and white shoes. He snuggles back.:: Hi. I'm trying to be less of an angsty doormat. If someone else were behaving as I was, I'd taunt them for it.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. Hey, do what you have to do. I'll still be around.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

"Well, you are a telepathic assassin, my dear. I think that earns you a few angst points to begin with." She pats his side.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::He likes being patted.:: You're a great source of excuses. I have to keep that in mind.

It's been a hard couple of months, emotionally. I have to kick my ass into gear.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

Well, she does it again, in that case. "It's why I excuse Watanuki his occasional angst bouts, what with being a paranormally gifted orphan."

"Well, not too hard. It's a nice ass, wouldn't want to get it bruised."

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi just snuggles in instead of saying anything. He's got a minor feeling that bad is coming, and he doesn't know why or what.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

This psychically gifted orphan thanks you.

::smile:: It depends on what smacks it, Yuuko.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

"Well, bruises still wouldn't suit it, darling."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I agree. They're really unattractive when they're in that brown-yellow stage.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

"Glad we agree." She kisses his neck lightly and strokes his side.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Mmmm-hmm. ::snuggle snuggle::

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

"So. Do you want to talk about your sorrows some more or do you wish to bottle them all up, like is normally done?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I feel like I've been talking about my sorrows for months now. That's one of the things I'm kicking myself over. I'd rather like to bottle them up, like jam.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

"A particularly angsty, aggressive kind of jam?" She kisses his cheek.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I'm keeping the aggressiveness. The angsty with its chunks of more concentrated angst can get bottled up. ::nuzzle::

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

She laughs a bit and kisses his lips softly. "Sounds like a good recipe, darling."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::kiss:: I'm full of good things.

::Schu's too emotionally exhausted for sex, but a bit of making out is nice.::

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

She's not in the mood herself. Snuggling and kissing is nice enough, for the moment. She pulls back from the kiss after a while and smiles softly at him. "I.. can't promise you that things will be alright. But I hope they will, Schuldig." A thumb lightly strokes his cheekbone, her eyes more open than usual.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Nobody can promise that. ::He leans into her touch a bit.:: Thanks.

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

She looks at him for a while, just touching his cheek. Then she blinks, her eyes closing just a bit longer than usual, and shifts to rest her head on his shoulder.

He'll die even sooner than the others, probably. Would blow his brains out before he got old and weak. It's such a shame.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Between her shields and his own promise, Schuldig isn't reading her mind, but he can sense the feelings.::

Don't let me bring you down. I'm fighting to live my life well and have as few regrets as possible.

::pets her hair::

[dimension-bitch.livejournal.com]

She wasn't really hiding it, no. Yuuko leans into his touches. "Hmm, it's alright. I'm 'down' more often than you'd think, either way. But that's a good way to live." She pats his chest a bit.