Not the Way It Should Be

[tastes_of_honey]

::There's a comfy couch out in the middle of the Nexus, and Schuldig's sitting there smoking on it. A mysterious couch in the middle of nowhere is so him he has to use it.::

::He's looking inward, not outward, and stubbing out his finished cigarettes in the big mouth of the goofy frog ashtray he has perched on one couch arm. If he's smoking, there are generally three possibilities:
1] He's with a smoker.
2] He's annoying a non-smoker.
3] He's stressed.

There's nobody sitting with him.::

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[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::smiles::

::Always.:: ::pats the couch::

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::smiles, and sits carefully::

::Oracle?::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Yeah, he's very jealous of you and Nagi and feeling a little bit inadequate and hating and denying the whole thing. Gave me some mindblowing sex because of it, though.::

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::He's finally admitted to himself that ye matter? Good. Then I don't need to threaten him to convince him of that.::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::He's got it. Which is one of the reasons why he's pissy. It'd be funny if I didn't occasionally get some of his inner struggle about it messing with my head.::

[dream-departed.livejournal.com]

She sits close to him.

"The weather in the Nexus has been the same since I've been here.

"Would you like some cookies? I brought some for lunch."

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Well, at least you're tryin'. So, the enjoyment of killing, is that instinctual? That's how it is with homunculi. Or did the training by your superiors instill that?"

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::I'm pleased ye have that, annoyance though it may be. Ye know he struggles, and he knows ye know, and ye don't need further words.

I see ye spoke with Greed?::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Training. Few of the people who made me up were killers by nature. Rosenkreuz wouldn't bother to keep me unless they could make a weapon out of me, so there you go. Eventually I started to enjoy it and got good at it. But killing isn't my first love.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Then it's still nice. ::smile::

I would never turn down your cookies, Aya-chan.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Yep. I think Greed almost feels repentant. He's struggling with it. Got him to take that damned Charm off as he talked with me. I'd be very happy if we don't have to deal with any further dumbassery.::

[dream-departed.livejournal.com]

Aya opens her backpack and takes out a tin with cookies inside: oatmeal, peanut butter, and double chocolate chip. She puts the tin on couch between them.

She bleeds worry at him.

"I'd make cookies for you whenever you like. I like seeing you happy."

Anything else is just wrong.

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::As would I. Will ye trust him to keep to his word?::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Chocolate chip is a definite. Mmmm.::

Everybody should like that. It wasn't so much unhappy as kind of thoughtful in a vaguely ansgty way. I don't have the stamina to angst for very long, especially not when cookies are involved.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::smiles::

::How many people do I really trust? I'll be a little more relaxed around him but I'm never letting my guard down fully. It's not wise.::

::snuggle::

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::nods, and snuggles back::

::I've been considering journeying, love, and I'd not leave if either ye or Nagi would be in danger from foolish homunculus pride. Will ye be well if I go?::

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Ah, I always wondered that. One more thing, have any of you brought it up with Farfello that he isn't all there?"

[dream-departed.livejournal.com]

"Will you tell me what's making you thoughtful in a vaguely angsty way? Or we could talk about the weather some more."

She would even be willing to sit quietly and pet his hair, if that would make him feel better.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

He knows. He actually had a huge breakthrough recently that I had to help him through. He used to be much worse. He's working on it.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::I'll be well, and so will Nagi. I'll miss the hell out of you, but I'll be safe.::

::snuggle::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

You can always pet my hair. You don't even have to ask!

Brad's jealous of my Nexus Schwarz family and my time here, but he can't quite admit to himself he's jealous or feeling a little not-enough-for-me so instead he's all stormy within himself and I keep vaguely picking up on it. He really does love me as best he can, which only makes it harder for him.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Good to hear. Hopefully that little incident with the kid won't ever have to happen again."

[dream-departed.livejournal.com]

She tries not think anything bad about Brad, since that seemed to upset Schuldig last time.

"My mom and dad used to say that time apart and separate interests were good for couples, and they were very happy together."

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

::I'll not promise to return quickly, but I'll miss ye as well.::

::absolutely snuggles. and kiss.::

::But ye have the whole of the Nexus as your playground again, love. I trust ye'll entertain yourself well in my absense.::

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Me too.

Onward and upwards now. I really missed being able to get out and talk to people.