I don't know because he doesn't know. It really bothers him that someone struck Schwarz like this. It really bothers him that he lost a member. It really bothers him that my visits to the Nexus brought this Farfarello down on his head. Once he stops being really bothered about so damned many things I'll know what our deal is.
I'm not going to just fall back into place on how thing were pre-Farfarello. Brad has to prove himself to me.
As for Nexus Farf.... For a while I thought it might be cool to have someone take out my problems for me, but I'm so over that. Nobody but me gets to decide who lives and who dies in my life. And the fact that he took a chance on killing me in that explosion makes me even angrier. Even when we were together and happy, it always seemed like he wanted me to jettison everybody in my reality out of my life.
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Date: 2007-10-28 03:31 am (UTC)I'm not going to just fall back into place on how thing were pre-Farfarello. Brad has to prove himself to me.
As for Nexus Farf.... For a while I thought it might be cool to have someone take out my problems for me, but I'm so over that. Nobody but me gets to decide who lives and who dies in my life. And the fact that he took a chance on killing me in that explosion makes me even angrier. Even when we were together and happy, it always seemed like he wanted me to jettison everybody in my reality out of my life.