Not the Way It Should Be

[tastes_of_honey]

::There's a comfy couch out in the middle of the Nexus, and Schuldig's sitting there smoking on it. A mysterious couch in the middle of nowhere is so him he has to use it.::

::He's looking inward, not outward, and stubbing out his finished cigarettes in the big mouth of the goofy frog ashtray he has perched on one couch arm. If he's smoking, there are generally three possibilities:
1] He's with a smoker.
2] He's annoying a non-smoker.
3] He's stressed.

There's nobody sitting with him.::

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[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

My partner in my own world doesn't like me putting my life on the line for what he calls my "quasi-imaginary friends" in the Nexus. We had a big talk about it, and he hates to talk about his feelings, so....

What brings you by my neck of the woods? With that Charm thing going I have no idea. It's like somebody turned me deaf. Really unpleasant.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

*slowly slides the ring off and raises his eyebrows as if to say, "Yo, gesture of good faith, here."*

"Just wanted a Nagi update. We had a big talk last night."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Schu sighs happily. It's like suddenly reversing being crippled.:: Thank you.

He's mostly okay now. Still pissed about getting thrown around and hurt, still pissed that you threatened me considering I'm kind of his mother figure... but he's practical. He's a good kid, and he's a strong one. I'm trying to undo a lot of shit a lot of very evil people have done to him, but we all have trust issues, especially with people willing to beat us down.

But if you mean your word, we're good. I don't come to the Nexus to work or fight, I come to relax and socialize.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"It's just hard for me to understand, ya' know? You guys are good to each other, but you're also some cold-blooded dudes."

"Don't get me wrong, my siblings were far worse, but they never showed affection. Most beings are simply killers or not killers. Most people who enjoy killin' don't have any tender affections. One kind of excludes the other. Sociopaths generally don't know what friends are."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Loyalty is what got us through the badness we had to live through under Rosenkreuz and Eszett. There was an us to fight against the them, and we had our pact that we would beat them and free ourselves.

Unfortunately, in my world, once we did that it started to fall apart and Farf and Nagi left. I still see Nagi sometimes but he's grown up and independent now. Left the nest. It's just me and Brad there now.

What I have here is my second chance at family, and I'm not gonna screw it up. And people are so much fun to talk to! If that makes me different from a sociopath, whatever.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Well, at least you're tryin'. So, the enjoyment of killing, is that instinctual? That's how it is with homunculi. Or did the training by your superiors instill that?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Training. Few of the people who made me up were killers by nature. Rosenkreuz wouldn't bother to keep me unless they could make a weapon out of me, so there you go. Eventually I started to enjoy it and got good at it. But killing isn't my first love.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Ah, I always wondered that. One more thing, have any of you brought it up with Farfello that he isn't all there?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

He knows. He actually had a huge breakthrough recently that I had to help him through. He used to be much worse. He's working on it.

[man-of-means.livejournal.com]

"Good to hear. Hopefully that little incident with the kid won't ever have to happen again."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Me too.

Onward and upwards now. I really missed being able to get out and talk to people.

[cursed-bird.livejournal.com]

((Can't... stop... laughing...))

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

((Schu: "What? You think so? We never noticed anything.... We just hung him upside-down in a straitjacket 'cause we're kinky."))