Burnt

[tastes_of_honey]

::Schuldig smells strongly of burnt things, which has been the usual lately, which is part of the problem. He looks high and a bit sick.::

I'm in trouble. I feel clearer and more me here, for now, but if I go back I don't know if....

I'm not objective anymore, they're not objective....

I don't want to leave them. Even now.

::lies down on his comfy couch and breathes deeply, waiting for Farfarello's influence to seep out::

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[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Hi, Kaa. I've been having a rough time at home. My telepathic nature is being used against me.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

Here's the situation. Having lost his son and wife, my own Farfarello came back to my team at home after years away. He had a deep psychic link with his wife, which of course broke when she died. He varies between lucidity and wanting to kill everything better, and Brad has lots of targets to aim him at. Farfarello wants me to fill the holes--we used to be co-workers with benefits--and he's bleeding his lust and murderous impulses all over in the knowledge that some of it will get through my shields and influence me. And it is. It feels so good when I'm lost in it, but later....

I've talked to Brad about all this, but he's so high on the extreme mayhem Farfarello and I can cause together, upping our asking price, and on being boss of a team instead of just one person again that he's not interested in kicking Farf to the curb. Also, Farf might not stay away, which means we'd have to kill him to get rid of him, and I... don't want to do that.

I may have to run for it and set up shop in another reality altogether, because they would hunt me down. I may have to take the Aya of my reality with me for a few days because he would probably be the one they'd try to interrogate over my whereabouts first.

It's a big mess. I don't know if there's anything anyone can do.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Schwarz is mindlinked, and Farf's to me came back to life when he returned. He has an In to me.

...it's looking like it. I have to figure out exactly where to go, because Brad and Farf will hunt me down if I stay in my own.