Things are great on the casual sex front. I'm attractive, they're attractive, and they never have to get to know me aside from how I'm the most intuitive lay they've ever had.
Getting serious and longterm means letting people know and getting the recoil when they find out what I can do. I can be "polite" with friends and block myself off from reading them, but for a loved one, someone I want to spend a lot of time, the rest of my life, with? I can't. It's like... imagine a lover saying that you have to wear earplugs around and could never touch him or her ever because what you are is really scary and skeevy. That's how it is.
I'm also manic and somewhat nuts. Doesn't help.
There aren't a lot of people like me in my world, and we tend to hide so it's not like we have a dating service. When my team destroyed Eszett, all the talents who'd been abused by them ran like hell.
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Date: 2007-08-27 05:49 am (UTC)Getting serious and longterm means letting people know and getting the recoil when they find out what I can do. I can be "polite" with friends and block myself off from reading them, but for a loved one, someone I want to spend a lot of time, the rest of my life, with? I can't. It's like... imagine a lover saying that you have to wear earplugs around and could never touch him or her ever because what you are is really scary and skeevy. That's how it is.
I'm also manic and somewhat nuts. Doesn't help.
There aren't a lot of people like me in my world, and we tend to hide so it's not like we have a dating service. When my team destroyed Eszett, all the talents who'd been abused by them ran like hell.