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[tastes_of_honey]

I had a kind of funeral for Farfarello yesterday, and my head still hurts from the telepathic work involved. Ambition has its price, but when I throw an event it has to be special.

Now I know who killed him and nearly got me and Brad killed as well: cursed_bird. It's not simply a psycho ex thing because he's threatening people in Nagi's life too. I'm putting together ideas on how to put a stop to this bullshit but asked the Nexus to see if anyone there had some nasty cool things to add. Most of them didn't, but some of it may help.

Brad's still pissed that someone I met in the Nexus is trying to destroy our team. Then he had the gall to be surprised for a few minutes that I didn't want to move back in with him or let him move in with me. I'm not gonna forget all the stuff he let happen before. He got the picture fairly quickly, though. I guess you can teach an old Brad new tricks. Or he realized anew that I'm all he has left of Schwarz so he should give me more respect and space.

So I'm depressed and angry. And headthrobby. Broken mind links take time to heal.

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[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::thinkety:: Swiss should go nice.

You feed me, Nagi took me out for karaoke.... It's nice.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Wow, grating cheese is really interesting! Nagi's gonna look at that. "Seems logical that your brains'll heal better if the rest of your links are being normal."

On the other cutting board, a knife moves to chop the other stuff. "So what's the deal between you and Crawford?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I don't know because he doesn't know. It really bothers him that someone struck Schwarz like this. It really bothers him that he lost a member. It really bothers him that my visits to the Nexus brought this Farfarello down on his head. Once he stops being really bothered about so damned many things I'll know what our deal is.

I'm not going to just fall back into place on how thing were pre-Farfarello. Brad has to prove himself to me.

As for Nexus Farf.... For a while I thought it might be cool to have someone take out my problems for me, but I'm so over that. Nobody but me gets to decide who lives and who dies in my life. And the fact that he took a chance on killing me in that explosion makes me even angrier. Even when we were together and happy, it always seemed like he wanted me to jettison everybody in my reality out of my life.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Schu said enough that Nagi's got the frying pan heated already and is starting to pour in the eggs for the first omelette. "You wanted me to do that, too. Sometimes I wonder if I had agreed, if it would have worked out. I dunno if it could have. I need my world. So I understand that."

"Could you compromise with Crawford? Maybe the same building if he gets his head out of his ass? I don't think it's helping you to make him be so far away when you need to heal."

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

It's past. We won't know.

I dunno. If we're in one building, Farf could take us out in one shot. Besides, I don't need Brad being smarmy about me supposedly needing him to heal. I don't think he's gonna get his head out of his ass in time.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"Good point about the buildings, but try to get closer. Don't tell Crawford it's to heal. Tell him it's to cut down on the commute or something. Or y'know, manage on your own and be healed before he gets his head out of his ass. Just don't deny yourself things you need if you can have it." A plate full of perfectly browned, fluffy omelette floats over to Schu. Nagi starts making his own.

Nagi's brain seems to be flipping back forth between being a bitchy little thing and wanting to snuggle the hell out of Schu.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I'm not moving again. I just got settled. It would have to be Crawford... and he would probably be an ass about it. Maybe I can put subtle feelers out about it though.

I'm not much about denying myself things.

Thank you. ::Schu bows his head as he accepts the plate.::

::Schu's getting a bit of a whiplash on the attitude thing.::

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi uses his telekinesis to ruffle Schu's hair. "I just really hate it when my people are messed up, okay?" Nagi's not really connecting his moodswings to the strained mindlinks and stuff he's got. He's usually a bitchy little thing in his own eyes.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

::Schu grins at the hair ruffling.:: Understood. Mmmmm, omelette.

Do you have something going on, Nagi?

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"No more than usual, I guess. It just pisses me off that the Farf in the Nexus decided to go all extreme-asshole on top of my Farf leaving, I guess." And Nagi isn't worried about Yohji. Nope, not at all.

"And you're hurting. I should probably be closing that out, but I..." Yeah, Nagi doesn't want too look all that closely at the reasons for not blocking Schu. They're schmoopy reasons.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Nexus Farf has been a pain in our ass for far too long now.

::hugs:: No reason for us both to be hurting.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi moves his meal off the fire and snuggles Schu. "A lot of what I know about telepathy I don't really know on a conscious level. It feels like a bad decision to block you out. It feels like a bad idea to be away from you." And it also hurts and makes Nagi feel more schmoopy than he's really okay with.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Okay, sweet. ::snuggle:: But I can block the pain away from you on my side.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"That would help." Nagi snuggles close, but eyes his omelette. "Did you finish eating?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I'm blocking now. ::snuggling and eating:: I'm not done with the omelette yet!

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Then Nagi's food needs to come here so he can chow down as well. "Is that enough or do you want me to dig up more stuff?" Nagi could whip up a fruit salad or explore the cupboards for dessert.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Dessert is always loved! And you should definitely eat with me.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi has acquired omelette! YAY! Om nom nom.

"You want something premade like icecream or cookies or something, or you want me to make something?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

You don't have to make something more if you don't want to! Pre-made is fine with me. ::Schu is almost done with his omelette, so dessert time is soon.::

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi mentally rummages through his cupboards and freezer. "I got chocolate chip cookies and icecream. Want icecream sandwiches?" There's other stuff too, but Nagi figures making stuff is more like spoiling his Shuru-chan.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

Ice cream sandwiches? How special! ::Schu is always open to being spoiled.::

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

Nagi's still munching on his omelette, but he can make Schu's dessert while he eats. Telekinesis is made of win!

Marble fudge icecream and chocolate chip cookies. Nummy.

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

I love telekinesis.

Those look yummy.

[killwithmymind.livejournal.com]

"It's kinda useful sometimes." A sandwich floats over to Schu while Nagi finishes off his omelette. "How many you want?"

[tastes-of-honey.livejournal.com]

There are a lot of times during sex when I'd love to have it.

::Schu grabs one.:: Three, please!