People Who Need People
Nov. 8th, 2007 04:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tastes_of_honeyI stopped coughing and sneezing building dust out of my head and lungs days ago, which is a great relief. My funeral for Farfarello seems to have created something of a religious crisis in the reality I did it in; the clippings I've been collecting have been interesting.
Brad wined and dined me again last night big time. This is more like the treatment I should be getting. He's prickly about the threat to his life, but he's focused right now, which is very attractive to me.
Aya and I ran across each other in a crowd. I was willing to pass like two ships in the night, but he wanted to talk so we ended up in a hotel room... and ended up doing more than talking. The sex was great, don't get me wrong, but it felt like a gyp. We were heading somewhere steadily and naturally before everything blew up in August, but now it's some spur of the moment, crazy-desperate act of passion bullshit. In the end, I still can't let him come home to me ever again unless he cut all ties with Kryptonbrand, which he won't, and he goes back to Ken.
Altogether, it's not enough.
Brad wined and dined me again last night big time. This is more like the treatment I should be getting. He's prickly about the threat to his life, but he's focused right now, which is very attractive to me.
Aya and I ran across each other in a crowd. I was willing to pass like two ships in the night, but he wanted to talk so we ended up in a hotel room... and ended up doing more than talking. The sex was great, don't get me wrong, but it felt like a gyp. We were heading somewhere steadily and naturally before everything blew up in August, but now it's some spur of the moment, crazy-desperate act of passion bullshit. In the end, I still can't let him come home to me ever again unless he cut all ties with Kryptonbrand, which he won't, and he goes back to Ken.
Altogether, it's not enough.
